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ROCKSTARs ke beech mein


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From hurrays to high fives, from winks to smirks and from ‘fist-pumps’ to the ‘jumps-in-air’, the complete package well awaits you in the jungle. You cringe often under the trees watching them enviously. And why don’t you have the fruits if you can stand well beneath the same trees is a question you have to answer on your own.


Seriously! To turn into an artifact out of nowhere you have to dig a hole, often, to drop yourself in and then shout with a smiling gesture “Help as I fall!” Somewhere someone will definitely look at 
you and in amazement would signal the world, which might make you say “Yes, I am...I am here”. It’s a habit nowadays of mine to sit calmly for moments to pass on while I take notes in mind about the differences to be abridged. You focus hard, keep your eyes wide open, ears straightened up but still you are not the first one to raise your hands while one rises amidst the crowd. For you, it mere resembles a finger in the air right on your intellectual growth but later, on way back to your den, a thought of revenge will ascend. An inner voice will shout “Hey moron! lost another fight?” For how many times does one has to ponder, “What the hell does it will take to beat them?” No one knows, but all one can succumb to is keep striving for it. No matter what it takes or what it might ask later, you have to twist the rope strong enough to secrete the demerits that still lie in you. Every day will demand a one more extra mile walk from you and you have to give in, for this is what may turn into the ‘intel-inside’ quality to you. I feel sometimes walking away from this nasty jungle for a ‘14 saal ka Vanvaasbut am pretty sure that won’t help in present scenario. Mainly because all that awaits amid the mountains are dirty greenhouse wastes, which surely owns abominable high contrast to what it might have been when Lord Ram went for the expedition.




So how should I survive this hell? In the same way as everyone else holds the ubiquitous belief, Work Hard and Hard and Hard and... The history of India must be appreciating the brainy architects who build the pillars of excellence, but does it care about the Low quality minds  who would have stood nearby watching its creation? At least history of my life appraises both the grades of minds, rather I prefer to be with the lower grades more as they don’t care about the finger at all. But, I succumbed often to bullying by high quality brains. Only dark blots in my past memories. Albeit, had it not occurred with me, my courageous genie would still lay asleep somewhere in the corner of my head. Now I prefer to believe more in me and other victims alike. I do not wish to turn into one of them, but yes I do wish to turn them to one of us.

Hum hain chaupat RAJA


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                Avinash shouted back on me for what I advocated then, breaking the quietude air amidst us. "Abe yahi sach hai yaar, why are you getting so patriotic?" good part of me replied to placate him.

It wasn't for the first time we lighted the fire between us on a social issue. Living with a 'jaagruk' roomy often makes it possible. Yet, this time it was me with some concrete statements to throw at him. Let me tell you, you are a part of 3rd Largest Educational System of the World. Did I hold you in awe? For the record, this is true and was well highlighted in a daily newspaper. Yes, we hold the third standing position on the stage with China and the United Sates joining us in the line ahead. However, the elusive top isn't strong enough to fade the irony that we educate only half as many people from the university age group as China does. You must have heard about the 'Times Higher Education' current 2011 polls, those which question of mere existence of quality education on Indian grounds. Yeah! you can for a while feel proud and condemn me boasting about the ranks of IIMs, IITs among top 100s of the world but to rectify your notes those stats are rusted. It was long before in 2005 and 2006. No Indian name was tagged below the huge figure 500 in 2011 by the same body of London. So let your pride rest in your pocket. Moreover, the number of Noble Laureates that our nation has seen so far is like a drop in the sea for such a large Educational System.
 
                I made Avinash finally silent and I can even make you stumble. The report of National Association of Software and Services Companies lists 85% graduates of general education and 75% of Technical Education unfit for employment. Haha... puzzled to fathom how much are you suitable for a job? If not, you will in the near future. The lack of numerous single university systems has lead us this way and we have gone so far that even chest-beating cries of the Indian students now won't even touch the eardrums of our 'Educated Netaas'. Can anyone find a reset button so that we can refresh and restore the quiescent system? It doesn't need a committee of experienced old minds to understand what ails our current educational system. The answer is well known but big enough to swallow for the bureaucrats; those who run the money-engines for our corrupt netaas. Secure a respectable score of 93% in board exams and you will find yourself eligible for the Ivy College of US but you will be ditched by the Delhi University. Yes, we can be proud of our quantity but have to keep our heads down while defining the quality.

                What's even more perturbing is how we are bound to rag pick whatever is being thrown by our Gurus. No 3 idiot team must have been able to make them see the corrosion they are reinforcing. Certainly, there are roadblocks to deal with but it is a professor who can only guide a student through them. What we are left with is directions to steer our life clear of innovations or otherwise we will be holding big zeroes in exams. There's no-one to cure us, the victims of Indian Educational System, who are taught 'to be an employee' rather than 'to be an employer'. 

                The time waits to see an Anna rising for it and I'll pray for the same. Till then keep the tag tight on your forehead: "Hum hain chaupat RAJA"


The Result


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(I puked all of this as soon as I got to know that my end semester result is waiting to ruin the ‘Happy Ending’ of my summer vacation. This word is so brutal that it even shatters your dreams into pieces during your sleep. I had to write all about it to relax myself. Is giving an exam not more than enough to test one’s altruistic features? I have to shatter every enjoyment that I can have before exam starts and now this result thing will tell the world how good I am. Why don’t they just promote everyone to the next stage of the game? I dream of curses and only curses for whosoever claimed this examination system in our studies. L )



It is always like an anvil dropped on your head, no mercy done in the punishment, you have to pay for whatever you have done so far. The only thing you are left with is PANIC, the never ending ‘agent of chaos’ that sucks away every space that the forthcoming heart beat was supposed to have L. Within a second the future is right in front of you- making your mind foresee every disaster that may happen in the unknowing happenings. A mere mention of this word drops you on the edge of the journey of  your life standing where you try to measure the depth of the fall that might stand as an option in the near future. Optimism loses its strength to retain the calmness within your heart and all you are left with is pessimistic blood which you pump in your veins.


The period starts since the childhood days when you are first told about it this word in a middle-school class. You may not give it even a penny-like thought then-and-there but deep inside your mind it starts to reshape with concrete roots. The hands of the clock ticks away and you enter in the reality-market where every shop demands for only one valuable thing of yours- 'RESULTS' before you are gifted with any sweets to relish. And then you are first acquainted with the word- PANIC. Even though your hands reunite now & then before your favorite God, that word would continue to consume yours left-over happy emotions. Sitting in a corner you'll count your mistakes:

                       

                          How many hours did I spend in watching T.V???
                          How many times did I organise a bunk???
                          How many hours did I on games???
                          ....................

 the length of the list doesn’t matter for you then and every breath is spend to demand for some praiseworthy after effects from God.



In India the first educational twist occurs during one's tenth board exams. You will almost plunge on hearing that result is about to be unveiled. For you it will be like the opening of your secret trunk bringing in picture the hidden realities of yours' in front of the so called competitive world. Your gully centuries will be questioned, which once made you proud as a cricketer. "Phewww" is the word that will surely be uttered when you enter successfully in the senior secondary hall (ready to face 11th and 12th class).


PCM and commerce are the traits to wear on thereafter, and no casuals  :( would be left to continue with. You will be forced to swallow the truth that they are now past. Heavy chains of hours of studies will be part of your daily life to carry with. You don't want to hold any contentions with your loved ones and so would continue to be a supporter of the followed social custom. Gleaming eyes within the house will grease your hard work for long time. In the end of this phase you'll meet the directors of your 'Life Movie'- The most renowned ones better known as COMPETITIVE EXAMS. But before you are signed for a good movie it's the Senior Secondary Hall where you have to stand as a protagonist amongst other actors. Hooting will be a part of the play; your loved ones will shout "Bravo! Bravo!" and you'll anyhow hold your feet firmly to the ground. It'll be the peak time where the word RESULT would even decide whether you will continue to breathe or not. Unfortunately as the play ends, some drops of bloods do fall on the stage (the suicides that several low lives commit after the announcement). Audience would be astonished to see that and the directors too but in the end "IT HAPPENS" is what they'll say.


The stars have been chosen and their names have been filed in the star cast list of some great movies like IIT, AIEEE, PMT, DU etc. etc. But still the devil word RESULT, as for me, remains attached with them. The spectators want a great show from all of them and it is this word RESULT that tells about their performance. Some actors enjoy the course and some continue to suffer. The only dream the latter group has- "My day will come....my day will come...."

So do drop in some comments about how you feel when you come to know that your RESULTS are gonna be declared??? I hope you don’t flinch as I do J




The Royal Numbers- only goofs


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"Oh bhai! jara side hona...", he said taking the bald part of his head out of the car window. It was a black honda city I guess which rested somehow beneath his clumsy fat belly. I was near the Subhash Chauraha waiting for the college bus to get back to my hostel room. But going to civil lines always features some incident like the one above pouring more strength to the animosity in my mind. His request may be simple but was filled with lot of arrogance. He went off speeding amidst the traffic at the chauraha while I still stood with burning eyes there.

College weekends are the only days when we can give our feet the tatse other than the usual ones- classrooms and hostels. I am sure mine feels lot delightful while thumping on the marble floors in the PVR or inside the Big Bazar. Do the feet enjoy alone the treat? Ah! Not at all, my eyes too participate by focusing the pretty feminine charm those show up in large numbers especially on the weekends in the city. Allahabad has got nothing else except its history, the Sangam and Civil Lines to feel proud of and so the latter most is the best hub to watch the fashion show well displayed by the two genders of the society on the weekends. J Okay! I am done with the background; now let's proceed to the main part.

Hmmm...so I was there still waiting for my bus. 20mins still left making room for a little roam around beside the city busiest roads. The 'animosity'- what is it all about? Well it is about the pain that drops on my head like a big anvil every time when I find myself to be small. You see it is since I recognised that I belong to a middle class family. Now do not misinterpret it as if I am cursing my family background (be  with your common sense)! But, I curse every bigwig who poses him\herself to be a bigwig. I know the truth and the world around them know it too, that they are breathing in a high class environment with a car, with a bungalow and with etc. etc. but what to boast about? Don't they have brains to notice we all have the same 27% oxygen (don't go on figures) to live in? They do, but still they find it sensible, I don't know from which part, to behave like a moron in front of the society. Even you may feel like bribing them, for making them to speak to you most of the times, like their self speaks only to the high class. And whom do you consider the real butchers of our nation's language? Yes they top the list. Don't deny, you have the examples, don't you? "Oh shit! Honey it's so disgusting over here"- bloody morons. Walking on the road and taking the keen observant out of you will surely add some more examples for your diary. I have many of them; the space over here is not enough.

Honk honk! And here comes the bus to end this ruminating city road walk of mine. I can swallow that uncle but being modest I swallowed my anger. I wanna work hard in my studies (to be in my car one day) not to be one amongst them but definitely to set an example for those who lose their original self and roam around wearing the attitude, for those who roam around with Hindi language suffocating in their heavy pockets, for those who easily forget that they are still a human being.



Exams- my mind jammed


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J turned into a L for a good period of time for me. Yes life is full of difficulties and this is best realised in practical sense when a student has to write the answer sheets. The requisite required to hold the question papers with confidence- drop out all your masti hours long before, pay good attention in class and ask your eyes not to wander around while studying. But are these so easy to procure??? Well, with computer games on my finger tips, with cricket and IPL matches on the go, with an 'always ready to go' on a tour to civil lines- it does not seem so 'easy'. The teachers leave no stones unturned to blow away the jovial self of me whose traces I try to hide beneath them. Assignments, tests and hangouts with chums now scheduled in laboratories instead of college canteen gift nothing else but Goosebumps.

It's of no use, for now, to contemplate and dig out the faults that lie in Indian Education System. But, asking my mind to stop creating various possibilities to skip the studies doesn't serve any purpose to the money my parents are investing. So I have to inflict the pain and stress and plead God to strengthen me for the BIG FIGHT. 'Change is Good', heard about that? But a change sucking the happines from inside, calling for the chats to shift from your friends to the immortal books, imposing fear of bad grades- not good from any angle. This change only keeps my pulses buried deep in worries married with tensions. For all the abysmal efforts that a student puts into, he should be tapped fully in the end even though he might not be holding a seat on the cliff.

Have to hibernate for some time amidst the stupid courses.






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